Nothing to Write, few things to say

On the phone to Durban yesterday, we both decided that we would both be extremely happy to see the end of 2007. Good god what a year. Please don't let the door hit you on the ass on the way out. And that's not including the lovely family saga that has plagued me for the past 5 years. When next I count to this area of the 2000s I will simply go 2005, 2006, 2008, 2009. I think I will celebrate my 25Th again next year and change my birth year to 1983. I'm sure this is possible, in fact home affairs has probably already done it for me, Ill let you know when I get my passport.

Although I learnt a lot about people, none of it remotely positive, I learnt very little about myself.
I did rediscover 2 very special individuals who carried me an awful lot this year, I think I should buy them a massage, I'm a rather big girl and rather bigger than them. (look what carrying the entire English rugby team did to Johnny Wilkinson's back). Its amazing how, even after 11 years people can still surprise you, in good and bad ways. I believe I found a good friend and a bit of a kindred spirit in a former sea-goer. Someone I knew really only socially, showed me what a tRRuly special, unique friend and person he really is. And when things can get really bad, people do come together, even those you least expect.
I did decide that I was going to call people out on everything and be totally straight, I will not accept any form of abuse from ANYONE and people will know exactly how I feel about things.
While this all sounds positive and rather good (it did happen in the second half of 2006 after all) it all arose from hugely unpleasant circumstances.

I wish I hadn't learnt that people are full of excuses. Excuses that they think allows them to do and treat people as they wish. They believe excuses are reasons. Are reasons not just excuses really? People are happy to suffer from victim syndrome or are the worlds biggest martyr. I learnt that people do not know how to accept responsibility or see themselves as part of the problem. I wish I hadn't learnt that people don't know or actually don't care when someone else is in trouble because they are not themselves and it would take too much effort to help them out. learnt that people only hear because it doesn't suit them to listen to what you actually saying.
But most of all I wish I hadn't learnt that when things are really bad and you are looking for people to restore your faith in humanity and all they do is reinforce that which you wish you didn't know already. And no matter how cynical one is, strangers and people you know always manage to disappoint you.

And with all this negative and seriousness, trust my parents to add some light to it all...
You know something is seriously wrong with the universe when you mother has to come watch South Park with you cause your father is watching Oprah.

Remain Infinitely Cute
XXX